been a year.8 cerita.macam baru semalam je start blog.macam2 dah jadi,came and went.experience yang...interesting.
thanks to those yg bg support;readers.
kak anis:my inspiration,my trigger:to make the big jump real =) kak anis ingat tak the first email saya anta kat akak?ehe...
to my suria n sunset:sorry for the masquerade.kenyataan mmg menakutkan,for me =|
cik siti:u’re one of the biggest motivators utk habiskan 5t5b yg menyeksakan tu =)
aie n azaren:u ppl’re like timtams to the hypoglycemic =)
hadiah:u’re one funky aspirin
auntie fasha n kak nadya:muchas gracias =).for everything
readers:u guys’re like cold packs to the migraneur.aech n everyone of u.silent or vocal.
maka...
i’m calling it a day
taking a break sampai ada my halfworks yg complete from intro to end.
sorry atas salah silap yang disengajakan atau tak
pada yg rasa saya nie writer sombong sbb tak entertain readers much,mintak maaf ye.kekadang silent is the best jln,especially bg org yg fail social skill like me.hidup pun topsy turvy.jgn katakan blog org,blog sendiri pun kekadang tak berjenguk.ahaha...
thanks
enjoy reading n shoutouting
may Allah bless
“…aku menulis bukan sebab aku nak create dunia fantasy.aku jot down everything yang aku nak share dengan orang lain tentang apa yang aku tau.aku tak banyak ilmu.tapi aku cuma tau kisah hidup~aku,family aku,kengkawan aku,orang keliling aku.dunia nie classroom yang paling besar dengan God sebagai Teacher the Almighty.aku banyak belajar dengan tu.aku tak pandai tulis bahasa bunga-bunga untuk harukan hati orang.aku just tulis apa yang aku rasa dan nak orang rasa.tp macam kata kawan aku 'everything needs commercial value and attraction force'.maka aku pun draw je cerita tu ikut taste org yg nak baca,tapi dengan core yg aku ada sebagai basic color.nak share&bercerita rasa dengan orang bukan senang.
aku tak pandai melukis,so aku tak boleh draw n paint perasaan aku
aku tak pandai menyanyi,aku tak boleh lagukan hati aku
aku takde art n skill,maka aku takleh nak shout out buat graffiti kat mana-mana dinding
dan sebenarnye aku tak pandai pun menulis....aku tau throw out n spill je…”
may Allah bless
why do I write?
staple diet
to treasure the snippets of life that revolve around me
to express my chaotic thoughts;shoutout
to share
solacescape
therapy
I aint writing just to create a fantasy love story.frankly speaking,I actually cant stand much mushy-lovey-dovey-stuff[one of the reason why GT_i[V] got me bad].sumer material yang dah publish kat sini,each ada core sendiri.the core is the reason that set me writing.the chenta part is mere fabrication.yeah…commercial value is a must kalau nak orang flip thru material kita.love element is an almost definite answer.
Tapi ada je material kat sini yang commercial value nyer overshadow the core.And in a way that kills me.serius =)
Tell what,I aint writing bout myself la ere.These’re not my bios.I aint that rich a person,experience-wise.
I just thought of a core,then spun the stories.Time nk spun tu la kita buat tampal cantum[ahaha…I miss those Kemahiran Hidup days].snippets of own and others’ experiences+observations+imagination sewn together.
and you get a story.
Wanna know the cerita behind each cerita? =)
i]GreaTroublemaker_i
-zaman sekolah is one of the bestest phase ever.hostel life doubles the fun.miss those days..
-wrote this when i was in form3.ahaha..
ii]GT_i’m a senior
-jadi senior.heh..sekolah macam sendiri punya.hari2 ‘orang besar’
-started writing it when i was in form4...tp 5yrs after that baru abis tulis ending dia.huhu...
iii]GT_i[i’m outta teens]
-I dun like this piece. =| [tak paham kenapa org suka sgt]
-drawing ppl’s dream
-having a brother is a bless[and sisters too =)]
-identifying something unidentified is harder than justifying the E=mc² equation.emotion falls under that sth
-wrote it time lepas SPM.mmg all the laws of bahasa tonggang-terbalik la.my bad ;p
-but GT_i[V] kills me.because the core is purely pengaratan.thanks to aie for requesting [note the sarcasm ;p].tp ye la.belajar mengaratkan diri pun a lesson jugak.ahaha...
iv]Versus
-a cry out
-a change.transition.turning point
-ripped.conflict of interests
-changing for good is not a crime but it costs hell as a manner of speaking
-street life.i love street.the focal point here is the skating scene.kita takkan faham dunia yang kita tak pernah jejak,tapi sekurangnya kita patut respect dan bukan sekadar buat judgement sendiri dengan apa yang kita tak tau.kena faham yg kita hanya org luar.
-treasured experience =)
-and I hate the soppy ending..sheesh..
v]Ked’s Story
-written on Hadiah’s request
-one of those yg written dengan oxidation as the core,ahaha..penat..but I did have my say
-relationship is not a game,neither is marriage
-and skating scenes.again =)
vi]5tahun5bulan
-tribute.the ppl around me,friends,family and pseudofamily
-anything could happen over time.ppl change after learning things,be it the easy or hard way
-growing up
-my suria
-my cik siti-how do I know I’m writing ur story la..
-comfort zone vs facing the cold hard truth
-snippets from the real life,thanks to the ppl around me
vii]a moment
-atuk
viii]Schubert’s Serenade
-a brother
-Schubert’s Serenade
-good ol’ tune-filled days
-books & classics
-a lost
and tell u what
me tak pernah baca cerita sendiri for reading pleasure.it makes me sick,makes me cringe.serius.
dah la bahasa tonggang terbalik,grammatical error berterabur je[kalau azaren dpt hypertension,the saman can jatuh on me oso kot.eheh..],tang part karat sendiri oso cannot stand [yea..i know.pretty rich la kira coming from the writer.but i’m real =) ]
dan bila time for writing and editing,I’m so emo-ly detached that I actually tak rasa satu menda pun biaq pi la org nangis ke ketawa ke kena diabetic ke apa.
writing for me is a one-way route
macam sorang tukang masak [u know who u’re =) ]
dia bukannya selera sangat nak makan apa yang dia masak
you can call me a bipolar/MPD/psycho/emo-detached android
I live =)
enjoy reading n shoutouting
may Allah bless
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p/s:the one year anniversary is actually on Jan 29th,but i’m pretty much bz and tonggang terbalik right now.so..yeah...=)